` Hey, look! Shoes!
` Sorry about that. It seems I've been living with so little focus that I can scarcely function without some kind of intervention. What's that like? Here's a little something I wrote toward the end of January 2007, back when I was just starting to try Lou Ryan's Ritalin:
` I get overwhelmed by random thoughts whether or not I like doing what I'm doing. That means that even when I'm doing something I really like, I can't enjoy it much (if at all) because my mind constantly distracts me.` Here's the crazy thing - as my Ritalin treatment has continued, I've been having a much better idea of how to control what is going on in my head. I've noticed that the only way I can complete projects, carry out experiments, or formulate plots to take over the world, is when I'm in a quiet room. Also, anxiety stops me from having any coherent train of thought at all.
` Day in, day out, it's like trying to watch a TV that is surrounded by a lot of other TVs on completely different channels!
` Amazingly, taking Ritalin makes them completely go away, and this also usually takes away all my anxiety. (Having no sense of focus and just randomly bumping into things as you try to go about your life is very stressful!) With the way cleared, I can do anything I want - any task, errand, chore, and best of all, I can finally have fun and stop feeling like a wrung-out towel.
` It's almost too good to be true - I sometimes stop and look over my shoulder because it seems too quiet and I almost expect to see distracting thoughts hiding behind me! It's just unreal.
` My standards of functionality have been raised!
` It is possible that my ADD was caused by the extreme childhood abuse and learned helplessness I endured - in which case it isn't proper ADD - though I can tell you that Amazing Superhero Lou Ryan was indeed born with it.
` And it has been debilitating for him!
` Each time he doesn't take Ritalin for a long while, he reverts back to his old mental habits of not being able to focus or pay attention, slides out of more productive routines and as a result he can barely keep up with chores, winds up making bad choices, and eventually goes back into debt.
` Now that he has the money for medication, he's 'able to get stuff done' as he puts it. I've found the same result for myself. Never before have I been so competent. And I thought I was just irresponsible by nature!
` Back in January, I had gone to a website that asks a whole bunch of questions that may give one an idea of whether or not one has ADD. I answered them back then, though I'll now add some additional answers for things that have changed. Contrast and compare!
1.__*History of ADHD symptoms in childhood, such as distractibility, short attention span, impulsivity or restlessness. ADHD doesn't start at age 30.
` That's a bit of an understatement - I had serious problems in those areas, went to Special Ed, didn't feel special even though I have 160 IQ! Abuse also had to do with most of it.
2.__History of not living up to potential in school or work (report cards with comments such as "not living up to potential")
` Let's think about this 160 IQ, in Special Ed... do you think that's not living up to potential? I also frequently got bad grades!
3.__History of frequent behavior problems in school (mostly for males)
` Extremely. Many a brawl was fought. I felt completely helpless to control myself, though this is also precisely the effect my dad worked hard to achieve through his conditioning, brainwashing and terrorism.
4.__History of bedwetting past age 5
5.__Family history of ADHD , learning problems, mood disorders or substance abuse problems
` I think a little of all of those things are in my family, including some level of bipolar disorder, alcoholism, paranoia, delusions, psychotic rampaging, obsessive compulsive disorder, etc.
Short Attention Span/Distractibility
6.__*Short attention span, unless very interested in something
` Yes. You can see this with books - even books that are interesting I cannot read for very long unless they are extremely engaging.
` ...Now that I've improved a bit, I am capable of focusing on books... though I've noticed that when I start to feel suddenly bored with them it's apparently because I've been blocking out the sound of someone talking and haven't understood much of what I'd just read.
` My brain gets very tired very quickly from that and so it seems to cause an intense feeling of disinterest. Once it is quiet again, however, I can resume with the same interest I had before.
7.__*Easily distracted, tendency to drift away (although at times can be hyperfocused)
` Oh yes. Hyperfocusing is very rare - usually I try to get something done and wind up staring at the wall instead.
` ...Hyperfocusing is now something that happens more frequently. It's very useful for piano training.
8.__Lacks attention to detail, due to distractibility
` Yeah! Even, usually, when I'm doing artwork or composing music, there's a lot of unfinished things and details that get glossed over. (When I can't miss details due to scientific scrutiny, my brain winds up barely able to function and I can scarcely talk coherently.)
` ...This is much reduced now, at least when I am feeling mentally refreshed. When my brain is tired, though, I have trouble considering details. Including details of social interactions, which is... troublesome.
9.__Trouble listening carefully to directions
` 'Tis the most frequent reason I get lost.
` ...Sometimes I'm actually able to pay sufficient attention these days. Or at least I think I am, considering the fact that I was lost for an hour the other day, and considering the fact that I got bad grades last quarter because I wasn't able to remember how to do my assignments.
10.__Frequently misplaces things
` This is one reason I try to keep my belongings to a minimum. I also have trouble keeping track of what I'm doing with my belongings.
11.__Skips around while reading, or goes to the end first, trouble staying on track
` Sometimes it's the only way I can make myself stay a few minutes longer on a book.
` ...Now I prefer to stop reading and do something else for a few minutes... if I can remember!
12.__Difficulty learning new games, because it is hard to stay on track during directions
` Oh yes. This is why I don't know how to play many games - I usually just jump into it without caring about small details such as how to play.
13.__Easily distracted during sex, causing frequent breaks or turn-offs during lovemaking
` It is almost impossible to stay interested in sex while I am trying to have it - usually I think about everything but sex. Then again, I'm sexually dysfunctional.
` ...Now I am able to keep track of it for about thirty seconds at a time, if I really concentrate.
14.__Poor listening skills
` Often it takes too much of my focus just to be conscious - forget about listening to people talking.
` ...I'm a little better now. Sometimes, I even know what's going on around me! I can even pay attention to the teacher if I sit in the front row and don't hear people whispering!
15.__Tendency to be easily bored (tunes out)
` I think the most prominent feature of my awareness is the sensation of reality washing over me.
` ...Now I am much more engaged at certain times, at least when I feel relaxed.
16.__Restlessness, constant motion, legs moving, fidgeting
` Quite often, at least when I'm not relaxed enough. When I was a kid, I constantly had to fidget and stand up because sitting still almost hurt.
17.__Has to be moving in order to think
` Almost all of my speech is directly associated with movement.
` ...I've noticed that after my daily workouts, I am much better able to think for a few hours.
18.__Trouble sitting still, such as trouble sitting in one place for too long, sitting at a desk job for long periods, sitting through a movie
` Uh yeah. Sitting still is only something I can do when I am doing something that involves having a very short attention span. Like blogging about ten million things at a time like I do - resulting in several posts at a time, only one getting finished.
` ...Now that I am taking Ritalin, I have a new ability; to pay attention to movies! Because they actually can register in my brain, I am discovering wonderful things such as 'plots' and 'sequences of events'.
` If you haven't guessed, beforehand movies were nothing but disconnected events that didn't make much sense to me and were thus boring.
19.__An internal sense of anxiety or nervousness
` It used to be debilitating, though it's not too bad anymore.
` ...Even less debilitating than ever!
20.__Impulsive, in words and/or actions (spending)
` Yes, I have to be careful about what I say and do in life - this is why I've learned to keep my mouth shut and have a hard time figuring out what to say.
` Spending is something I just tell myself not to do unless it is critical because if I don't watch it, I can wind up running out of money.
` ...I've developed some better habits that get me through the day without screwing up too much.
21.__Say just what comes to mind without considering its impact (tactless)
` I have had a huge problem with that in the past, though I generally don't make people cry anymore - I have learned to put a lid on it.
` ...Now I insult people only very occasionally, though I sometimes talk more than I did.
22.__Trouble going through established channels, trouble following proper procedure, an attitude of "read the directions when all else fails"
` Yes, it is hard to remember what I'm supposed to do oftentimes, especially when things go wrong. I used to just curl up in a ball, though if things get really hairy I call Lou Ryan.
` I don't even have to call Lou Ryan much anymore. I also have plenty of lists and things. I don't generally remember to consult them, but sometimes I remember well enough that I don't need to.
23.__Impatient, low frustration tolerance
` Hell yeah!! I don't even want to talk about it.
` ...Now I'm less frustrated, though since my standards are higher, I don't tolerate even small amounts of frustration. I'm used to being better than I was.
24.__A prisoner of the moment
` Let me out of here!! I want to think about what I want to have for lunch one of these days!
` ...I actually do think about what I intend to do for the day now - though it only turns out the way I planned about one quarter of the time.
25.__Frequent traffic violations
` Due to not being able to focus on driving, I have a lot of hairy moments.
` ...Only a few hairy moments now.
26.__Frequent, impulsive job changes
` This is the reason I don't want to get another job until I know what I want to do.
` ...I think I like acting, because it involves going from one project to another.
27.__Tendency to embarrass others
` One of many downfalls. And I don't even realize it until it's too late.
` ...Not as much as before - even when my brain is on 'spin cycle'!
28.__Lying or stealing on impulse
` I try to be a good little chipmunk... I TRY!!!
` ...I have a better hold on myself because I can see what I'm like better.
29.__Poor organization and planning, trouble maintaining an organized work/living area
` All of my stuff is strewn about the lab. It is nearly impossible to think of or commit to any chores unless they are part of my daily routine - since I shower each day, I often do the dishes because I bring them in the bathtub with me!
` Errands? Forget it! It usually takes me about two days to two months just to get one thing done!
` Organization? What's that?
` ...In more recent times, my days are packed with many more errands than ever before. Sometimes to the point where I cannot get online to update my blogs! *gasp*
30.__Chronically late or chronically in a hurry
` This is practically synonymous with having to be somewhere at a particular time.
` ...Sometimes I'm actually early now!
31.__Often have piles of stuff
` Here, there, on the chair....
` I think it would still be much the same if it weren't for the new shelves to hold my piles of unfinished stuff. But, at least I occasionally put stuff back where I got it from.
32.__Easily overwhelmed by tasks of daily living
` I can scarcely formulate an idea in my head long enough to carry it out, if it happens at all. I even frequently abort missions to get up off my butt and look out the window. It's a lot of work to keep on track - so many thoughts in my head are pulling at me unless I am very tired (low brain activity) or taking Ritalin.
` ...I'm only overwhelmed when I have more than two immensely crucial things to do.
33.__Poor financial management (late bills, check book a mess, spending unnecessary money on late fees)
` One of many reasons I don't have much money.
` ...I'm starting to save. Slightly. Also, Lou Ryan owes me well over a thousand bucks.
Problems Getting Started and Following Through
34.__Chronic procrastination or trouble getting started
` Every day for almost every thing. Unless I have someone to help get me motivated.
` ...If I'm not tense, I'm not so paralyzed that I need the help.
35.__Starting projects but not finishing them, poor follow through
` I have about a thousand things I've started - not many that I've actually completed. This includes chores, artwork, genetic tracking, writing, musical compositions, plans for world domination - everything I do, there are piles of unfinished things in my life both figuratively and literally.
` ...I still have a backlog of unfinished stuff, but now at least I don't add more very often.
36.__Enthusiastic beginnings but poor endings
` Often I am enthusiastic, but that usually is not enough to keep me focused all the way through - my enthusiasm wearing off is normal for me. (Would I finish this if Lou Ryan were not sitting next to me?)
` As long as I can keep cool, I can generally finish things. Just gotta stay focused. Being distracted causes stress and boredom!
37.__Spends excessive time at work because of inefficiencies
` Getting anything done for me often takes about six hours longer than I had intended.
` ...To note something that happened a year before, which I didn't fully understand the significance of: Back when I didn't have the internet and so had to go to the library for all my blogging and email needs, I generally couldn't get anything done in the hour allotted me before the computer kicked me off.
` One day, the library was not full of people talking and whispering and asking me questions, which I thought was Quite Odd. For once, I actually checked my email accounts and my blogs, and pasted in a new blog post - everything was done before the 2-Minute Warning!
` Amazed at this, I put my mouse pointer up to log off the computer, and was amazed to find that only fifteen minutes had elapsed.
` I stared at the monitor - then got back online to do something else!
` I understand, now, that if people are bothering me or whispering, my thinking slows down several times below normal, and is very patchy and intermittent. Whispers and voices are literally interference.
` In my math classes, we didn't have teachers as much as we had directions to follow (which I didn't even look at) and didn't have to be in class to do our work. So, I just didn't come in. On test days, I would try to find a quiet room. When I couldn't, I would fail the test. But, when an adjacent classroom was available and I took the test in there, I got only As.
` My storming out of various rooms because the people I repeatedly told to be quiet as I was taking a test didn't listen to me did not help my grades.
` I now understand that it's necessary to get people to shut the hell up or just stop and give up, because I just can't do these things under those conditions. Ritalin does not help in these situations, either, so I've learned to disengage and stop my pursuit.
` Indeed, when someone say something when I'm typing here, I put down the keyboard and listen because trying to keep typing is very painful and I'm not in the least productive anyway - unless writing a bunch of random stuff, full of typos, and erasing it because it doesn't make sense is considered productive.
38.__Inconsistent work performance
` Sometimes I have enough energy to carry myself through and get things right, though usually it runs out and I get stuck somewhere in the middle.
` This happens, but generally for only things that are not a top priority.
Negative Internal Feelings
39.__Chronic sense of under achievement, feeling you should be much further along in your life than you are
` It's the story of my life.
40.__Chronic problems with self-esteem
` It's the sub-plot of my life.
` ...Since I'm finding that I'm good at more and more things, I don't feel so barren of merit.
41.__Sense of impending doom
` Never mind the 'impending' part. Seriously, it is hard to accept my life because it is so good. For some reason I think I am going to lose it all.
` ...I think I can hang on by now, if at all possible.
` Me? Mood swings? Why I oughtta....
` ...Not so much anymore.
` Sometimes - I used to have a major problem with depression, now I don't think I'm so negative after all.
` ...Nah, I know more about what I'm really capable of, so I don't feel so bad anymore.
44.__Frequent feeling of demoralization or that things won't work out for you
` All the time. And is it true? Almost all the time....
` ...Hmm. Sometimes I actually do things correctly and nothing bad happens. Amazing!
45.__Trouble sustaining friendships or intimate relationships, promiscuity
` I do have trouble being close to people, and it's hard to feel like I'm really friends with someone. It's also sometimes hard to feel much of anything, really. I do love my Lou Ryan - though sometimes I feel nothing, and it's a relief when the love pours back.
` Also, thank goodness for orgies.
` ...Did I say that? Of course I was joking, since orgies do nothing for me. I'm sexually dysfunctional, remember? Oh yeah, and I'm a little better at having stable feelings towards people.
46.__Trouble with intimacy
` I only feel like I'm being intimate every once in a while.
` ...Ditto, though probably more frequently.
47.__Tendency to be immature
` Whoever thought of that one is a real stupid-head!
` ...I have faced serious developmental blockages over the years. Can you tell?
48.__Self-centered; immature interests
` It is sad, it is true, it is something I try not to do. I talk about myself in response to what people say about other things because I feel the need to relate to everything that way. If it's not in my experience, it is a mystery.
` ...Now that I have a bit more perspective, I'm not really as narcissistic/egocentric unless my anxiety is very high.
49.__Failure to see others' needs or activities as important
` One great reason to get involved in other people's activities! I try not to be self-centered, really I do! I know it's a problem. And look at how many times I use the word 'I'! Everything's about me!
` ...Now I can sometimes see why other people would react certain ways to things, rather than guess based on patterns.
50.__Lack of talking in a relationship
` I have trouble formulating sentences, or being motivated enough to say things that I'm thinking of saying. Of course, when I take Ritalin I just automatically say what I need to say, and can communicate clearly.
` ...I'm getting better at thinking of what to say all the time, as well as when and what to say. Gone are the days of 'I was just thinking that' and 'I was just going to mention that!'
51.__Verbally abusive to others
` Not really - I know what it's like to be verbally abused, so I tend not to.
52.__Prone to hysterical outburst
` Oh my god!! That's so true!! *sniff*
` ...Hardly ever.
53.__Avoids group activities
` I like being with just one or two other people - interacting with too many others is overwhelming.
` ...I can handle more than two individuals, as long as I don't have to make negotiations or decisions with several!
54.__Trouble with authority
` I just walked out of an emergency room the other day, does that mean anything? I have issues with doing what other people tell me unless I think it's right.
` ...Since I have more control over my self, I don't fear others controlling me. Much easier to cope.
55.__Quick responses to slights that are real or imagined
` Only if someone misunderstands the way I am. Usually when I get irked for any reason I don't say anything unless I need to correct someone's misperceptions of myself.
` ...Same, though I'm usually not as offended anymore.
56.__Rage outbursts, short fuse
` No, I don't think so, though I used to smash holes in walls.
` ...Now that my mind has a 'higher' setting, I'm more defensive of that setting. But at least I'm not enraged.
Frequent Search For High Stimulation
57.__Frequent search for high stimulation (bungee jumping, gambling, race track, high stress jobs, ER doctors, doing many things at once, etc.)
` I need a lot of stimulation to distract me from the annoying things in my head - know where I can find skydiving lessons?
` ...Sometimes I just like to sit down and not think at all. Rest, for once! Usually it requires Ritalin....
58.__Tendency to seek conflict, be argumentative or to start disagreements for the fun of it
` Have you read my blogs? That's all they seem to be about! Conflicts, arguments, and boy do I love debates! I get really pissed when people say they don't care about logic. I get even more pissed when they say I think I know everything. If I knew everything, then why do I ask so many questions?
` ...I enjoy debates, I'm just more reserved now because being brash does not win friends.
Tendency To Get Stuck (thoughts or behaviors)
59.__Tendency to worry needlessly and endlessly
` All the time. I almost never stop, even when I'm supposed to be having fun. It's very stressful.
` ...Yay! I can stop worrying now! The anxiety goes away, and guess what? I can think better because of it!
60.__Tendency toward ADHD ictions (food, alcohol, drugs, work)
` Cute word. Yes, constant food, intoxicants (only when I'm feeling horrible), walking a mile every day it's warm... I need those just to function.
` ...I find that working out each day gives me what I need to function - my digestive system speeds up so much that I can keep my brain's energy levels constant without constantly eating.
` Perhaps this is a digestion thing more than an addiction. Oh, and if it means anything, a quiz I took shows that I am 54% addicted to blogging.
` More than just blogging, writing is an addiction (or rather a passion) - blogging is just the form of writing I'm habituated to the most. However, I am now able to disengage in what I'm writing if it's taking too long, whereas before I was not.
` Now, talking to myself could be considered an addiction because it causes thinking disruptions....
Switches Things Around
61.__Switches around numbers, letters or words
` I don't know what is meant by this, though I do at least two different versions. Version one - I get confused about how to spell things, though my real weak point is 'number dyslexia', which is the reason that most math problems I have to write on a separate sheet of paper are wrong.
` Version two - I'm so good at making bad puns that I deserve to be shot!
` ...Huh? Wow... I had a problem spelling things? I would not have known but for the above writing!
62.__Turn words around in conversations
` If I'm the slightest bit nervous, I can barely speak coherently due to my words getting mixed up. I also used to get male and female pronouns switched constantly, which was really embarrassing.
` ...Wow! I'm barely ever that nervous or drained to the point where that happens!
Writing/Fine Motor Coordination Difficulties
63.__Poor writing skills (hard to get information from brain to pen)
` I have a hard time writing because my pen is not fast enough - unless I am very calm, I often have to write truncated sentences if I want to get anything across.
` This is why I do all of my writing via computer. (Which can be bad because the power goes off all the time.)
` ...Yay for the power not going off all the time! But hey, sometimes I seem to be able to hold stuff in my brain long enough to write stuff out longhand.
64.__Poor handwriting, often prints
` Yes; this is why I cannot write in cursive. I can at least read my printing most of the time!
` I am so clumsy that I used to slam my head in the car door all the time! My head was fine until the other day when I almost gave myself a concussion walking into a door because I couldn't focus. There was blood everywhere.
` I'm a bit more aware of my surroundings vs. my body. That's why, on the camping trip I got back from today, I didn't have as much trouble concentrating on finding my footing with thick hiking boots, a 25-lb pack, not to mention my barely-sensate feet.
` I also knew whether or not my pack was unbalanced, which is glorious, you could say: Last time, I spent the whole trip heaving my backpack to my right side just to take a step with my right foot. "Quit waddling" indeed! It was the only way I was able to walk!
The Harder I Try The Worse It Gets
66.__Performance becomes worse under pressure.
` Infinitely; pressure seems to cause me to fall into a coma.
` ...I don't feel like I'm under pressure as much as I used to.
67.__Test anxiety, or during tests your mind tends to go blank
` Yes, if I do not have Ritalin then my mind is a big sheet of white paper. I feel like I'm hanging on a trapeze in the dark.
` ...I don't have test anxiety anymore at all.
68.__The harder you try, the worse it gets
` Trying just causes me to go slow. It's like Zeno's Paradox - the more I try to keep up, the more I'm guaranteed not to finish. Just the other week I tried to read nine pages for school. After about six hours I decided that five pages wasn't good enough progress for me to continue.
` ...I just learned to take some frickin' breaks!
69.__Work or schoolwork deteriorates under pressure
` Unless I have Ritalin, all I can think about is the pressure!
` ...If there are things to be done, rather than getting trapped under pressure I take a break or do something else.
70.__Tendency to turn off or become stuck when asked questions in social situations
` This happens about five times a day. Sometimes I can't even answer at all and just stand there looking stupid.
` ...Barely ever.
71.__Falls asleep or becomes tired while reading
` Sometimes I use it as a handy trick when I can't sleep from all the crap running through my head!
` ...I don't need help falling asleep, though at night I still get somewhat sleepy when I read.
72.__Difficulty falling asleep, may be due to too many thoughts at night
` Yes, unless I am absolutely exhausted I frequently have so many thoughts and/or worries going through my head that I can't tell myself to shut up and go to sleep. It's so hard to ignore them!
` ...Not a usual occurrence anymore.
73.__Difficulty coming awake (may need coffee or other stimulant or activity before feeling fully awake)
` Most of my life I have felt like I was only half awake between times when I was asleep. I have a tremendous problem with waking up - Lou often has to jump on top of me and shake me many times before I wake up. In fact, the other day when he did this, I didn't even wake up at all!
` ...Even if the aliens from the planet Kittar don't wake me up by ripping across the carpet and me in the process, it's not so hard to get moving.
74.__Periods of low energy, especially early in the morning and in the afternoon
` Both of those are my favorite times to be tempted to have a siesta. However I don't unless I absolutely can't stay awake. In the evening, I tend to suddenly 'wake up' more, and if I don't, it's an early bedtime for me!
` ...Unless I exert myself, I don't need a nap, though when I am experiencing certain hormonal levels I can scarcely refuse one. Perhaps I was mentally exhausted before - anxiety can really take it out on someone!
75.__Frequently feeling tired
` "I'm so tired" has got to be among my top ten most commonly said phrases.
` ...Now it's "I need to work out!"
Sensitive To Noise Or Touch
` Yes, and I have no idea why, especially because there's nothing to be afraid of!
` ...Nope. I guess I'm just not high-strung anymore.
77.__Sensitive to touch, clothes, noise and light
` HELL YEAH! More than anything in the world, clothing and sounds have been the things to piss me off throughout my life. I even wrote a blog post about it a really long time ago...:
` Not only has ignoring irritating things gotten me into serious trouble, but it's forced me to stay at the edge of a nervous breakdown for most of my life! (This explains my low productivity, which I've reluctantly thought of as 'laziness'.) I only discovered a large part of what's been making my life a living hell about a week ago - not removing myself from things that irritate me (or removing them from me)!` ....Holy schizzzzznettttt! I still have problems with this, of course, but not as much, probably because I'm less overwhelmed with everything else in the entire universe.
` In the past, if something bothered me (i.e. being cold, wearing really irritating clothing, hearing a constant, really annoying sound), I just said to myself; 'Oh, I'll live with it. No big deal.' Well, a lot of those 'no big deals' have been keeping me in a very awkward and detrimental state of anxiety for... well, my whole life, pretty much.
` For me, it's almost like a prickling sensation and a general feeling of revulsion, like having a bunch of gnats biting me: I remember when I was a small child, trying on clothing at stores. I kept telling my mom 'these clothes have pins in them!' over and over, which she eventually would break down and yell at me for. Well, I couldn't figure out just why, but I did feel a 'sticking' sensation, and I wasn't fooled by the fact that I couldn't see anything!
` Why this happens, I don't know, but it still does.
` I always thought it was really ridiculous, because it sounds so stupid! How could something like that have any large impact on someone's life, right? That's why I ignored it - I figured if I kept wearing the same things, I'd 'grow up' and 'get used to it.'
` Wrong! I really didn't think that being irritated by your clothing could cause a huge problem. But it really can!
` Very unpleasant - makes me very tense and my blood pressure and heart rate go right up.
` Does anybody else have that? It's like, the lighter something touches me, the more I want to pull away from it or itch that area. Wearing a very thin, featherweight and rough polyester shirt with short, ruffly sleeves that someone bought for me caused lots of anxiety, twitching, watery eyes and scratching. My full-body numbness actually seems to add to this problem, because I can feel even less.
` Less sensation = more irritation. I question how that can happen, but I don't question that it happens.
` Well, the 'test' ends here, I presume that was the last question. So, what have I established? That whatever is wrong with me - definitely symptoms of ADD or even ADHD - at least seems to be improving.
` Anyway, I have a few things I need to finish besides this blog post. It's been nice visiting, but I really must go. Ta ta!